Sunday, December 7, 2008
No really...we're still among the living!!!
This past month has been the most ill in our lives yet. Shortly after Halloween, I started feeling under the weather. 3 weeks later, that continued and eventually turned into bronchitis. Pretty much as soon as I started feeling better Lilia got sick.
Our first indication that she was sick happened in the days leading up to Thanksgiving. Tiffaney has started working Monday's now (in addition to Saturday's) and our girls had spent that Monday with their friends Zaylee & Thomas Basker. It had been two weeks since they had last been with the Basker's because the week before they had pink eye. Anyway, by Wednesday Lilia had snot pouring our of her nose and was clearly ill, but more than that, she had eye goop literally flowing from her tear ducts!! We couldn't keep up with the vast amounts of goop she was producing! I mean, I think that she seriously must have lost weight making that much goop!!
Our first thought was naturally that somehow, even though the Baskers had already gotten over their sickness before the girls went over there, Lilia must have gotten pink eye. The only problem with this theory was that Lilia's eyes weren't pink...jut goopy. We took her to the doctor the day after Thanksgiving to find out that it wasn't actually pink eye; the goop coming out of her tear ducts was actually SNOT!! Who knew that you could clog your sinuses so much that the pressure would push snot out of your tear ducts?! EWWWW!!!!
At least we were able to go to the doctor's and figure out what was going on. Her doctor prescribed Amoxicillin for a severe sinus infection and we were supposed to be good! Au contraire!!! Five days later, Lilia's whole body gets puffy and she has a rash over her whole body - she looks like a wee human strawberry. Once again, Tiffaney treks out to visit Dr. Loomis to learn that Lilia is actually allergic to penicillin and she has to stop taking her medicine for the sinus infection immediately. Thankfully, even though Lilia was supposed to take the medication for 10 days Dr. Loomis said that she had had enough to fight the infection - she just needs Benedryl for the foreseeable future to help her until the Amoxicillin works itself out of her body.
To continue the saga, after that all happened, about Thursday Tiffaney (who had been feeling unwell for most of the week) finally reached a crisis point and by that evening was feeling so bad that she also decided to go to have a doctor check it out. She went to our regular doctor's office first, but it was so full that she decided to go to the local Wal-Mart instead and have the Quick Care doctors check her out instead. It turns out that Tiffaney has strep throat, abscessed tonsils, an ear infection, and a fever from her body trying to fight all of that off.
Friday brought even more sickness when Carolyn (whose been coughing to try and get sympathy & attention from us for a while) woke up with pink eyes and goop flowing from them. Her eyes are very tender and (now that we're experts in eye goop) we can tell that it has a much different consistency than Lilia's. Her eyes look pink, but we're not sure if that's from her rubbing them or, if it's an actual sign of illness. We know that her eyes do tend to react poorly to Nelson (her adopted stray pet cat) and lately she has taken to rubbing her FACE in the cat's fur every chance she gets!!
We tried just giving Carolyn Benedryl Friday and Saturday, and it seems to have helped, though not as much as we would have liked. When we had taken Lilia in, her doctor gave us a prescription for pink eye medication "just in case." We filled it last night (again, just in case), but we're thinking (hoping) that it won't be necessary.
Now to top everything off, my eyes are feeling tender, scratchy, and keep on producing sleepies! Though I admit that my condition may very well be psycho-somatic.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Damsel in Distress


Thursday, September 25, 2008
Nelson




So, you may or may not know this but we're thinking about expanding our little family, and adopting a cat. When we first moved into our house, we would hear strange sounds, like someone was moving around in our basement...only we don't have a basement. We do, however, have a crawl space, and it is inhabited by our downstairs neighbors, feral cats. You can see where the previous owners have tried to bar the cats from the cat-sized openings to the crawl space by hammering wire mesh over them. You can also see that the wire mesh has been efficiently peeled back, by determined cats. I happen to really enjoy cats and I have passed on that love to JT (or maybe, to be fair, perhaps it was Katie, The Best Cat Who Ever Lived who gave JT a love of cats, or at least a fond tolerance for them) and so we have a live and let live policy for the cats. We like to watch them hunt in our backyard or laze around in the sun. Sometimes one will take a nap in the flower bed/barrel that we never plant flowers in. They're pretty fun to have around, and in exchange for room and board, the cats make sure that we never have rodent problems, which after the mice problems in our last house (which developed after the departure of Katie, The Best Cat Who Ever Lived) is a HUGE boon to us. Thus far, we have left it to the cats to take care of themselves. We don't feed them, house them (other than letting them live in the crawl space), groom them or take them to the vet. I might have been tempted to try to take care of them, but they get a really wild look in their eyes and dash away into a hiding place when you get too close to them. Until now. We've seen a gray cat hanging around our house, but because of our past experience with our wild, furry, mangy friends, we didn't try to approach him. Yesterday Carolyn got really close to the gray cat and instead of acting anti-social, he butted his head against our (cautiously) outstretched hands and purred. Carolyn asked me what his name was, and I told her she could name him. While I was thinking of names like Smoky, Ghost, or Coal, she decided firmly on "Nelson". Nelson?? Yes, Nelson. Poor Nelson, he's such a nice cat and he is so skinny and malnourished looking. And it's bad luck for Nelson that he's coming into my life now, instead of when I was single and lavished my love, money and attention on my cat(s). Yes, I used to be a Cat Lady, and deep down, I probably still am. I used to buy "only the best" cat food for my cats ($25-$30+ a bag) and take them to the vet if they got even a tiny sniffle. I was so attached to my cats that when I had to put one to sleep because she had FIP, I was so distraught that the vet's office sent me flowers the next day. Quick side note--I feel the need to defend myself. Just so you know, I never owned more than 2 cats at a time, I NEVER decorated with cats in anyway (not even a cat calendar) and I never took their picture. I was a Cat Lady, yes, but I was a Cat Lady with clear boundaries. Just so you know. Anyway, I'm not ready to commit to Nelson in that way. We're going to take it slow, feed him once a day, maybe spend some time outside with Nelson and get to know him a little better. Sort of see if this is a good fit for all of us. With that in mind the girls and I bought Nelson some food this morning. Carolyn wanted to buy him some canned food, but instead we bought him a 3.5 lb bag for $2. Carolyn and I have agreed that it's her job to feed Nelson. Carolyn is extremely ecstatic about this. She keeps proclaiming that Nelson is "gorgeous!" and wants to go outside and be his constant companion and feed him again and again until he pops. I must admit that Nelson is a very tolerant cat, especially for a "wild" one. Carolyn keeps petting his fur backward, so that it stands up, and although you can tell he doesn't enjoy it, he is very stoic. Katie, The Best Cat Who Ever Lived would have swiped, claws out, at such an insult, or at the very least, ran away. Nelson, desperate for attention and love, just sits there, and accepts his lot in life. He could be our kind of cat. We'll see how this goes. Oh, by the way, those other pictures are random pictures of the girls, so that you can see how much they've grown in the last 2 months, since I have been remiss in updating this blog.
Monday, September 1, 2008
And...I'm Back!!! (with the shortest post EVAR!!)


Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Berries For Grandmother

Thursday, July 17, 2008
Happy Helper

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As you can see, the pictures really tell the story, no narration needed. But I'll tell you anyway. I had just made lunch for us and I went into the living room to answer the phone. When I came back...Carolyn said, with great pride and high volume, "Mom, I'm HELPING!! I'm helping Leelah! I'm feeding her and SHE LIKES IT!!!" as she was happily shoveling heaping spoonfuls of cereal toward Lilia, who gobbled as much as she could with cheerful greed. Lilia did indeed seem to be having a great time and 'liking it'. It's amazing to me how far 1/4 cup of baby cereal can go. Lilia's shirt was coated with a covering of food so thick that it fell off and into her lap in globs. Carolyn had thoughtfully left the bowl of cereal in Lilia's reach so even as Carolyn was feeding her, Lilia was raking the cereal with her fists and bringing it to her mouth, and of course smearing it all over her tray and chair as well as rubbing it into her hair and tired eyes. Naturally I ran to get...the camera. (You didn't really think I would try to immediately tackle this mess did you? No, no this was going to take some serious psyching myself up before I would do that.) I would have made a video recording of it, but my camera didn't have enough juice. By the way, do you see how proud Carolyn is? I have a hard time convincing Carolyn that I can feed Lilia without help now. "I can help you," she'll desperately plead with me, as though she knows that I desperately, desperately need her help. Anyway, after taking pictures until the camera's battery gave out, I knew it was time to face the music. Yes, I had to get Lilia out of that chair and into the tub. The question was, could I do it without becoming as messy as she was. The answer was, no. But I needed have worried because between the Master Splasher (Lilia) and my good helper, Carolyn, (who poured water down my hands and arms, saturating my clothes in the process) all traces of baby cereal were washed away and I changed my shirt anyway.
Carolyn really is my devoted helper. Whenever I'm doing dishes, she's there to help. When I get the mop out (especially when I get the mop out) Carolyn is there to lend a hand. When Lilia wakes up from her nap, Carolyn is there to try to help Lilia out of the crib. Actually, I think that Carolyn might often times help Lilia wake up from her naps as well. She loves to help me give Lilia a bath. If there is something that needs to be taken away from Lilia, Carolyn is only to happy to be the one to do it. For me, the trick is to let her help me in a way that doesn't make more work for me, but is still fun for Carolyn. (I hear tale that children don't always want to help as they get older, so you have to train them when they're young...or so I hear) I have to confess that I'm just not good at it yet. Especially with dishes. I've tried to give her the task of wiping down the table as I wash dishes, but she isn't having any of it. I must make it look really fun, dipping my hands in the deceptively clean, frothy looking bubbles (I think dishwater is absolutely disgusting) and scouring and scrubbing dishes. She'll wipe the table down for all of 5 seconds and then she's scooting her chair next to me and demanding equal rights. I've pretty much resigned myself to just letting her do her thing and "help" me all the while reminding myself that children are washable and so are clothes, and counters, and floors, and chairs and it really doesn't matter if she gets saturated with the nasty dish water. I actually will roll my shoulders, reminding myself that it's like 'water off a duck's back' to me and that I need to be easy going and loosen up a bit. Yesterday, as were working together at the sink, Carolyn smiled at me and cheered, "We're having so much fun, Mama. It's a good time! I love you so much." And I didn't even care about the water sloshing it's way along the counter and floors because we were having a good time. And I had already unplugged all appliances on the counter. Safety first.
Monday, July 14, 2008



Oh dear, where to begin? Today has been that kind of a day where I feel like I'm constantly busy, but by the end of the day, I'm not really sure what I've done all day. (Okay, that's pretty much everyday, but anyway.....) It started when Carolyn came into our bedroom this morning wearing a scowl. I tried cajoling her into smiling by doing the whole, "I can see your smile,"thing, but Carolyn remained firm. She gave the barest of shake of her head, no I really couldn't see her smile, because it wasn't there to see. I pressed on anyway and eventually she lightened up. I spent all morning refereeing between Carolyn and Lilia, especially when it came to the children's piano. I believe I have mentioned before how they both love to play with that toy, especially if the other one is playing with it first. However, all in all, things were going fairly smoothly and I decided that I could run to the bathroom, all by myself. (Quick side note, off the subject a bit--before I had the girls I would take at least an hour to get ready and now I can take a shower, get dressed, do my hair and my makeup in 20 minutes. Of course I looked a lot nicer when I used the whole hour.......) I knew that if I left Lilia on the floor she'd probably find something to choke on or she'd try to chew on the power strip by the TV (she likes to keep my on my toes by doing both constantly, all day long) and it might be a tad inconvenient to save her from disaster, and so I was proactive and put her in her swing, turned on our current favorite kid show "Peep and the Big Wide World" and told Carolyn and Lilia to be nice to each other, and then hurried to the bathroom (naturally the door was left open). Just as I was entering the bathroom, I heard Lilia scream and raced back out to the living room. I found Lilia howling with pain and Carolyn huddled on the floor, hiding her face. (Another quick side note--when Carolyn does something bad and trying to be sneaky about it, she'll hide. When she was smaller, I'd walk by a room and see Carolyn hiding under a blanket, and it would be a very big clue to me that something bad was going down. Now that she's older and wiser, she has abandoned the blanket as being too obvious and will either try to find a good hiding spot, like behind furniture or she'll try to blend in with her environment and perhaps hide in the curtains. The picture of her hiding in the curtain was taken when she was trying to avoid bedtime.) That side note wasn't very quick, but anyway, I knew that something very awful had just happened. At first Carolyn said that Lilia was crying "for no reason" but it eventually came out that Carolyn had bitten her foot. Biting is wrong, and not tolerated in our house (maybe it is in yours?), but in Carolyn's defense, I think she was play "chomping" with Lilia (we used to do this with Carolyn, only it truly was play chomping, and we've stopped the practice of this game a long time ago because Carolyn doesn't seem to know how to pretend to bite someone) and she obviously used too much pressure because I could see little, but deep, teeth marks on Lilia's tiny foot. I had Carolyn sit on the Naughty Chair while I consoled Lilia and checked out the damage. Then I had Carolyn go to her room while I got my zen back and continued to console Lilia. You'll be happy to know that the skin wasn't broken and there is no bruising and that Carolyn felt true remorse, so much so that the first thing she told JT when he walked through the door tonight was how she got in trouble for biting and how it wasn't nice to bite people. After we had all calmed down from the dental drama, we had lunch and headed out to the used book store. The used book store is another favorite haunt of ours because we have a lot of credit there (I would tell you how much we have, but that would be oh so tacky) and so it's like buying books for free (they also take back anything you buy there so it's sort of like a library--until you run out of credit) and they have a nicely stocked kid's section, complete with toys (Carolyn's favorite is the Barbie and the doll stroller) and to top it all off, they have a couple of cats who live there as well. If Carolyn isn't playing with the toys, she's hunting the cats and running them to ground. Okay, actually she's just trying to find them and perhaps pet them, but it sort of looks like the former.....Also, the people who run the book store love Carolyn and Lilia and they lavish them with compliments and attention. All in all, it's a pretty good time there, and today was no exception. It was even better than usual because Carolyn pal'd around with another little girl and I was able to peruse the store at my leisure. After the book store we headed to the Dollar Tree, which is only the BEST DOLLAR STORE EVER! and if you have one close to you, I highly recommend you go there. The Dollar Tree is a little bit more dangerous than the book store because they don't take trade, but hey, everything in there is a dollar so you know what you're getting into. Except you don't really, because they always have something really cool and different from what they had the last time you were there. This time they had relaxing cds (I could use those for my massage) writing pads (the really cool kind with 3 lines that I could use to teach Carolyn writing) slender sippy cups (Lilia could hold these easier than the "fancy" ones they sell in other stores) and so much more. Carolyn's favorite thing to look at was the wall of fake flowers. She thought they were so pretty. Lilia was happy as long as we were moving most of the time (she graciously allowed us to stop and look from time to time). We spent almost an hour walking around and looking at the varied merchandise (you have to take your fun where you can find it) before we decided to make our purchase (only 2 things, thank you very much) and go home. We were on a shopping high as we left the store, until I lifted Lilia from the cart and saw that her diaper and exploded. And it was a poopie diaper. Of course this cut our errands short, as you can imagine. We hurried home and I immediately gave Lilia (and her car seat cover) a bath and then took her picture because she was that cute, and so happy from her bath. And that wasn't even the end of our day! I haven't gotten to the part where Carolyn smeared chocolate pudding all over the kitchen chair and then stamped pudding, using her face, all up our hallway walls on her way to the bathroom to wash it off (live and learn, Tiffaney, and next time wash her in the kitchen) or the double diaper changing marathon, but it's getting very late and this post is already very long, so........
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Playtime
Here are a couple of videos of the girls playing together. Well, the first one is just of Lilia, playing the piano, and sadly, it looks like it didn't record properly, so it's like a silent film (don't you feel more cultured now, watching a silent film?) but even though you can't hear her making beautiful music, at least you can see how much she's enjoying playing the piano. The piano has become one of Lilia's favorite toys. Sometimes, Lilia will be having so much fun playing the piano that Carolyn will get jealous and try to take it away. If I catch her doing this, I'll put a stop to it, and more often than not, as soon as my back is turned Carolyn will turn the piano off so that even though it's Lilia's turn, she won't want to play with it. But I am onto her and her devious ways, and it goes back on. (To be fair, the piano is technically Carolyn's, but I still don't like her taking it away from Lilia--or clotheslining Lilia away from the piano, which has happened--) Actually, Carolyn will take just about everything away from Lilia. I think she's mothering when she does it. She'll chuckle indulgently and say something like, "No, Leelah. No, no, no. You can't have that," in the most condescending manner imaginable and then pluck it out of Lilia's grasp. I'm sure that in Carolyn's mind, a big sister's work is never done. In the second video, Carolyn is teaching Lilia all about the difference between fast and slow, much to their mutual enjoyment. When they play together, it's so cute. When they don't, it's not much fun, and there is nothing cute about it. In fact, it's exhausting. To be fair, they're playing well together, more and more, the older Lilia gets, but I feel like I'm constantly saying things like, "don't sit on Lilia" , "don't roll on Lilia", "don't trap Lilia under the blanket", "we don't put things around other peoples necks" (eeek!) "don't cover Lilia's mouth", "don't feed Lilia crayons" and on and on it goes. Sometimes, I'll tell Carolyn, "I love you so much. I love you when you're good, I love you when you're bad, I'll love you always and forever, you are special to me." Earlier in the week, Carolyn came up to me with soft eyes full of love and gently stroked my arm with feather-light touches and said, "I love you when you're mad.........."(awkward silence)".......you're special to me, I love you forever." It was very sweet. It made my heart melt and yet...there was nothing to counter balance the "mad". It got me thinking, does Carolyn see me as an angry mom? Am I an angry mom? I don't want to be one. For the rest of the day, I found myself second guessing all of my reactions and maybe adding a healthy helping of syrupy sweetness to all of the admonitions that I doled out. I really don't think it made a difference. I just felt fake. Whether I say it with enough sugar to give cavities to everyone within hearing range or just say it like it is, it seems to have the same effect. Amazingly enough, Carolyn doesn't like having her behavior curtailed or even monitored most of the time. Too bad. Oh well, at least I have a recording of them enjoying one another's company and I can always watch it when I'm feeling discouraged.
A funny story that JT wanted me to add.....
Carolyn loves this show called "Super Why" (I'll have to blog about how Carolyn and Lilia, yes Lilia too, watch way too much t.v. in another post) where Whyatt (that would be the "Super Why" of the show) and his friends, the Super Readers, go into a story book and rewrite the story so that the storybook characters have a happy ending. (i.e. instead of leaving the ball because Cinderella's dress turns into rags, she stays at the ball, parties with the prince, makes her stepsisters green with envy and has a great time because her story is now rewritten to make it end that way.) Well, anyway, lately Carolyn has a hard time keeping her pants on. I think that if she had her way, she'd just run around in a diaper...or less. We have been working with her though, and we're making progress (please ignore the fact that she's not wearing pants in the video above) . Or so I thought... but apparently while I was at work yesterday, Carolyn strolled into the livingroom pants-less. When JT reprimanded her, Carolyn said, "I can't wear pants. It's in my story. 'Carolyn doesn't wear pants'. " JT couldn't keep a straight face, and so another lesson was learned/reinforced....when you're cute, you can get away with a lot.
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Water is Wet, It's True

What I really should call this post is "Technical Difficulties" because I have been trying for days, my friends, to upload videos but I have been unsuccessful. Today Blogger seems to be in a better mood and I've been able to upload at least one video and I'm moving on. So..................
After the debacle Doctor's visit, this week has been pretty fun. On Tuesday we celebrated Carolyn's birthday at the park and it was so much fun. On Wednesday I took Carolyn to Portrait Innovations to get her official 3 year old portrait done and it was also a lot of fun. Do you have a Portrait Innovations near you? If you do, you should go there. Right now. You won't be disappointed, especially if you like to get portraits done on the cheap (I do). Speaking of cheap portraits, I got another "official" 3 year old portrait done at Kiddie Kandids on Friday. They let me down. But's that's okay because I only got my free 8 x 10 sheet, we had a lot of fun shopping,we got to bring JT a treat (Carolyn absolutely loves visiting him at his office) and now I have Portrait Innovations. Did I mention how much I like them? A lot. Anyway, the real highlight of my week was Thursday. The girls and I walked to the park near our church, by way of stroller (yay me! for actually using the stroller at least once a week as planned) and met Shane and his family there. Shane and Melody bought a KFC smorgasbord and the adults relaxed and chatted while the kids all played. We were there for about 2 1/2 hours and if Lilia hadn't needed to eat (shame on me for not bringing her food with us) we could have stayed even longer. Carolyn was having so much fun that I had to use a bribe to get her to happily come home with me. The bribe that I used was the froggie swimming pool that I bought about a week ago. I was so excited to get this pool. I had visions of Carolyn and Lilia swimming like little fish, shrieking with laughter and having a great time while I sat in a lawn chair, under an umbrella, sipping a delicious slurpie of some kind and reading a book. As if I would run the risk of my children drowning while I read a book as my children played in a pool. As if I had a lawn chair. As if I had an umbrella for shade. As if I could be sipping a slurpie without either sharing it or giving it to Carolyn and Lilia. I do have the book though. So my little fantasy was pretty much that, pure fantasy, but I was sure that we'd still have a good time with the pool. I have to admit that when I blew it up, I was a little disappointed. It's a very small pool. We're talking rinky-dink small. But it was still cute and even if we just used it this summer, I would still get my $15 worth out of it. I hauled it outside (yes it's so small that it will fit easily out of my front door, even when it's completely inflated, open froggie mouth and all) and filled it up. Carolyn was dancing around the house in excitement, her eyes were sparkling, and she was giddy with joy. I helped her get into her swim suit, grabbed a blanket for Lilia to play on (I was a little leery about plopping her into the pool without heating the water up a little bit and too tired from my trek to and from the park and lazying around in the sun and all--you know how exhausting that is--to heat the water) and we headed out to our new swimming pool. Carolyn and I swirled our arms into the sparkling, crystal depths of the pool (okay, not that much depth there, but it was shiny) and I waited for Carolyn to splash into the water. I certainly wanted to climb into that pool. The water felt so good on my arms, not too cold at all, and if the pool was slightly bigger, (oh, say the size of my bath tub, maybe?) I would have gotten in with her. The only thing is that the pool is very small and I am not and I would look like an idiot. A great big idiot in a little itty-bitty pool. So I restrained myself. But Carolyn wouldn't get in it either! Oh, she would splash around with her hands a little bit, and she'd play with the ball and tell the ball that it liked the pool, but she wouldn't venture in. She was having a good time with the sprayer though, at least until she got her swimming suit wet with it. Then she started crying that her swimming suit was wet and that it needed to come off. I tried to explain that the purposes of the suit was to get wet, but she wasn't buying it. I thought, foolishly, that if she'd just get in the pool she'd see that it was fun and that it was okay to get wet and so I picked her up and placed her in the pool. She stood up and scrambled out of that pool as quick as a scalded cat and yelled, "It wants to eat me!!!!" her voice squeaky with real fear. "It's a nice froggie, sweetie. It's a fun froggie swimming pool," I tried to coax. Her response? "It wants to CHOMP ME, mama!" I have to confess that I didn't see this coming. When I saw this pool, I thought that it was cute and soft and summer fun. I thought this was a big step toward to us spending time outside and actually liking it. She looked at the pool and no doubt thought, "Oh my gosh, my mom expects me to swim in this 'froggie's' --let's call it was it is, a monster's giagantor mouth. My mom's not too bright, but that's why she has me to look after her. What will she think of next? Playing Candyland on the railroad tracks?" When JT got home, Carolyn had rewritten the incident and told him all about how she and Lilia had played and swam in the froggie swimming pool and how much fun they had had, and how she can't wait to swim again, only the water is "too wet".
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Monday, June 16, 2008
Feel The Pain (and this post is really long, so you will)


Okay, these pictures have nothing to do with the contents of this post. These are videos and pictures that I took when we were playing at the park last Thursday with my sister-in-law Melody and my nieces Haven and Kimmee. (By the way, we had a blast! and plan on picnicking there Thursday.) I would post pictures about today's adventure, but it no one wants to see the shocking horror that is........
Me taking the girls to the doctor's for check ups and vaccines. Both girls at the same time. For some reason, I thought I was being very clever and efficient by making their appointments for the same day. I thought I was making it easy on myself. Ha! Not so. And never again. It actually didn't start out too badly. In fact, both girls were being so good that I was congratulating myself on being so smart because I was shooting two birds with one stone. Carolyn was playing in the castle with a couple of kids and I was holding Lilia. And then Lilia wanted down and I realized that I forgot to bring a play blanket to come between her and the very, very grimy and stained floor that I would never let a baby of mine come into contact with. So I held onto her while she strained against my arms and lunged for freedom. My back was starting to hurt, but all in all it was just par for the course. (so funny that I use that term since I know absolutely nothing about the game of golf) After an eternal 20 minutes we were ushered back to the examining room where we spend another 20 minutes waiting for the doctor. (This is nothing compared to the hour and a half we had to wait last time, for which I am very grateful.) In the examining room it was much of the same with Lilia trying to dash herself to pieces on the hard floor with the addition of trying to stop Carolyn from getting into the many drawers of medical supplies and equipment. By the way, quick side note, why don't they child proof the drawers and cupboards in a pediatrician's examining room? Do they think children aren't curious? Do they not care that children could be handling "sterile" supplies? Is mine the only one who likes to get into stuff? But I digress...Once Dr. Loomis came in and began the exam, things got better because it was Carolyn's turn first and she didn't have to have any shots. Carolyn loves Dr. Loomis and as long as Dr. Loomis was giving Carolyn her undivided attention, things were going smoothly. Carolyn was preening and showing off. Dr. Loomis made the comment that Carolyn was very smart (she probably makes that comment about all of the children she sees, but I have to admit that I enjoyed the comment none the less) and Carolyn started rhyming at her. Dr. Loomis wanted to look into Carolyn's eyes, Carolyn batted her lashes. And on and on it went. Then it was Lilia's turn and Carolyn wasn't ready to give up the spotlight. She wanted me to hold up her so that she could see everything that was going on with Lilia, but I have to confess that I was enjoying a moment of bliss. My tired, aching arms were empty, I was rolling my shoulders, getting the kinks out of my back and savoring the sensation of sweet freedom while someone else made sure that Lilia didn't fall to her doom, or at least to her serious injury. I really didn't feel like holding an even heavier child and I denied her "request". So she pitched a fit. It got to the point where Dr. Loomis offered to let Carolyn sit next to Lilia on the examining table, on the condition that she not whine. (Good luck with that, Dr. Loomis) Carolyn gamely agreed and hopped back on the table. The rest of the exam was spent with Dr. Loomis looking over Lilia and dispensing sage advice like, "lower the crib mattress as much as you can so that Lilia doesn't fall out" and "Lilia can now have yogurt" while Carolyn tried to talk over her, block my view of Lilia and replace it with her own sunny visage, and topple Lilia over with hugs and loves. I was getting a massive tension headache trying to listen to the doctor, pacify Carolyn and keep Lilia safe (from Carolyn). Because I am a mild hypochondriac (let's be fair, I'm a major hypochondriac), in the past I've had a lot of questions to ask at the end of our visits, but the last two times, I really just want to leave already. So Dr. Loomis hurried out to her next appointment and a friendly nurse with a tray of syringes came in. I kept comforting myself that at least only one of them was getting shots today (I'm sure Carolyn was doing the same--poor unsuspecting Lilia.....) and that a couple of shots (try three!) was much better than Polio or Diphtheria or whatever, but I knew that it wasn't going to be fun. The nurse had me hold Lilia's arms down (do they have to make me a party to her misery??) and Carolyn watched from the steps at the end of the table and I turned my head to the side because I hate watching the carnage. Poor Lilia. She's so small and the needles were so big. She started screaming with shock and pain and betrayal (it made my heart ache) and then Carolyn started crying herself and yelling at the nurse to stop it. "You're hurting her, you're hurting my Leelah!" The nurse and I tried to explain that the shots would help Lilia to not get sick, but Carolyn wasn't having any of it. Finally it was over and I could comfort them both. Lilia might have disagreed, but Carolyn seemed to need comforting as much as she did. Eventually the girls calmed down and all was right, or at least no one was getting stabbed with needles, and I gathered up the papers I had been given on vaccines, feeding tips (wished they actually worked), safety check sheets, blah, blah, blah and Carolyn's stickers (Dr. Loomis gave her 6 stickers that were either glittery or scratch and sniff, all the size of my palm) and we headed to the door. Only I forgot something. I forgot that Carolyn has to be the first one out the door and the first one in the door. She will mow you down if you get in her way, and heaven help you (or me, as it were) if you're holding 8 bags of groceries. Anyway she darted in front of me and grappled for control of the door, insisting, "I do it all myself!" and the door opened over her foot, bending her big toe nail back so far that it has a white crease across the center and it broke the skin. Poor Carolyn was howling with pain and crying so hard that tears splashed onto the floor. I lifted Carolyn back onto the table so that I could get a better look at her foot. I didn't have anywhere that I could set Lilia down, so I attempted to clean the blood off her toe (she didn't actually let me touch her foot until we got home) with Lilia on my hip. No one peeked in to see what was wrong or if they could help. Maybe they thought that if I needed help I would come out of the room and ask for it. At any rate, we finally made our way out of the room (both Carolyn and I were much more cautious with our exodus) and down the hall to check out, Carolyn limping pitifully and Lilia sniffling miserably, both with tear swollen eyes. I'm don't even want to know what I looked like at this point. Carolyn was so sad that the receptionist offered her a lollipop, which was quickly accepted. (Carolyn always makes out like a bandit at the doctor's office.) I felt so weary by the time I got the girls safely bucked into the car, that I decided we all needed a drink, so it was off to Target! but that's another story........
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
You're on Candid Camera!
Quick little back story for this video......Carolyn was very frustrated because she couldn't zip up her white sweater. She was getting so upset that her face was cherry red and her eyes were spilling fat tears. And of course, she was shrieking. I offered to help her, but that just fueled her rage to greater heights. You'd think I'd know better by now, because no matter how frustrated she gets when she's doing something all by herself (which is everything lately) it only makes her more upset when I offer my assistance. Actually, I'm very proud of her for wanting to do things by herself and for asserting her independence. I have a hard time not stepping in and fixing things for her. It's almost painful to watch her struggle with something that I could easily do for her, but I'm trying, because it's important that she knows that she can do things all by herself and I'm hoping that she'll learn to deal with frustration. But back to the video....after working herself up, she went to the piano and started to play it. And I thought it was a good opportunity to experiment with uploading a video onto this blog. I thought that even if it wasn't a cute video, it would at least be entertaining. (I'll try to get something cute next time) After I did the video, Carolyn immediately wanted to watch it. She watched it over and over and over again and I don't even know how many times she watched it before she very softly patted my leg and apologized for not being very nice. It was like she was thinking to herself, "Is that what I really looked like?" I wonder what I would think about my behavior if I was presented with a candid recording of it. Would I like what I saw? Would I ask myself if that was really what I looked like? I have a feeling that's what judgement day will be like. Whoa, this is way too deep for this blog, way too deep. :D (anything deeper than a soap dish is pushing it) On a lighter note, I might use the camera another time Carolyn is pitching a fit and see if it has the same effect. She'll probably think it's cool. (By the way, when I ask her if she's playing beautiful music, her reply is, "No! I'm playing MY music!!!" --since I was holding the camera close to me, you can hear what I'm saying, but what she says isn't as clear.)
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Even MORE Loot!!!




Friday, June 6, 2008
Library Loot


Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Rhyming Time



Friday, May 23, 2008
Water Show
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This is how the trip home from Rachelle's house started, but it's not how it ended.....Apparently my girls love road trips as long as they're under 1 hour (sort of like their mom, if we're being honest). By the time we were 2 hours into 6 hour the trip, they were both howling. You know how when one wolf starts howling, the rest of the pack joins in? You don't know how close I was.....
Keep in mind that
there are at least 10 more. There is one that shoots up at least 15 feet in the air (we call it the Geyser) and would probably go higher, except that tree branches break it's accent. It's actually a little bit embarrassing. Luckily we have the sprinklers set to come on at 4:30am-8:00am and hopefully my neighbors have better things to do than be up and around and watching the show (although it is entertaining). Of course, most of my neighbors are elderly, so that is not the case. Oh well, at least it keeps the weeds green.
Sunday, May 11, 2008
My Own Fine, Young Canabal

Earlier this week I was holding Lilia, and Carolyn came over and brushed her mouth against Lilia's head. "Oh", I said, "you're giving Lilia kisses! What a good sister you are! You love her so much."


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